let me out

rootless tree ~ damien rice

"we go blind,
when we've needed to see,
and it leans on me,
like a rootless tree.

so fuck you, fuck you, fuck you,
and all we've been through,
i said leave it, leave it, leave it,
it's nothing to you.
and if you hate me, hate me, hate me,
then hate me so good that you can let me out."

i want to quit my job so badly today that i am on the verge of tears and shaking. i don't know how much longer i can do this. i am a tough person, a strong person, but i think i've hit my limit.

detours and fences

joey (acoustic) ~ concrete blonde

live in london

"and if i seem to be confused,

i didn't mean to be with you,

and when you said i scared you,

well, i guess you scared me, too."

feeling unspeakably sad today. so much pain seems to be touching people i care about this year. so much. too much. and the mood i am in today, well this song doesn't really say it, but in some ways it does. tell someone you love them, that you forgive them, that they matter to you because if this year has taught me anything it is that life is too short to not say what you feel. another death today in someone i love's life. enough now. 2008, stop it or you can just fuck right off.

who gives a fuck about an oxford comma?

oxford comma ~ vampire weekend

& the video

"why would you speak to me that way,

especially when i always said that i haven't got the words for you?

all your diction dripping with disdain,

through the pain,

i always tell the truth."

having a shit day, no other way of describing it.

work is killing me, the hours and the expectations, are completely burning me out.
my "vacation day" yesterday ended up with me working from home until after one am, and this is not some exception to the rule.when an hour of television feels like a luxury there is a problem. i miss having a life.

i remember when all-nighters meant something fun was going on.

i have so much caffeine in my system that my hands are shaking, and have had a little over an hour's sleep.

*grumble*

anyhow, this song is an attempt to lift my spirits.

it is near impossible to sulk while listening to vampire weekend.