but you are another mystery i am missing

half life ~ duncan sheik

& the video

"before the truth goes back into hiding,

i want to decide 'cause it's worth deciding,

to work on finding something more than this fear."

i've probably posted this song before, in fact i'm almost certain i have. i know this song has meant varying things to me at different times in my life, and that there are times when my heart takes in messages from everything i hear, speak, experience, and breathe in. suppose that is the core reason for my obsession with music, with art, and with the mystery of expression. i am forever moved by the human condition. we all tuck so many truths into the things we feel, write, sing, and dream.

i've had a moment with this song this morning, and it means enough for me to tack it up and say yes, thank you, i think i'm starting to understand me a little bit more.

shadows of ourselves

for all the good you say it does,

it seems no better when you've had your say.

you may believe it's just because

the words get colder when you've gone away.

i thought i understood what i was to you.

i don't want to feel this way, no,

i don't want to say i'm just a friend.

i don't want to wait around here

'cause you don't want to feel no pain again.

we just lie about it

as we become shadows of ourselves.

some may fear committed lives.

i sure am one of them without you.

does it come to you as some surprise

i laid the ground beneath to doubt you?

was it ever something you could hold?

i don't want to feel this way, no,

i don't want to say i'm just a friend,

i don't want to wait around here
'cause you don't want to feel no pain again.

we just lie about it

as we become shadows of ourselves.

i don't want to look away.

i don't want to be the one denied.

it ain't no fault of mine

if someone somewhere told you lies.

we don't talk about it.

we just become shadows of ourselves.

we don't talk about it.

we just become shadows of ourselves.

in the absence of sun ~ duncan sheik