she won't let you go

don't look back into the sun ~ the libertines

"when they played that song at the death disco,
it started fast but it ends so slow;
and all the time it reminded me of you."

i am on the cusp of a really bad day at work, starting with an early meeting where i'm sure the client is going to be very unkind. i went to bed stressed, and woke up with my stomach in uncomfortable knots. so, stumbling on the news that they played together last night at london fashion week was just what i needed.

for a moment it made me stop and smile, and hope.

thanks for that boys.

my pins are none too strong

peter doherty, live at glastonbury, 2008

most probably the main reason i wished i'd been there. well, the second most reason. leonard cohen definitely was the first.

talk over gin and teacups

albion (live at brixton mass, june 17, 2008) ~ peter doherty

"there's a five-mile queue,
outside the disused power station.
now come away,
wont you come away."

until the next time i get to see you again

"their way,
forces your hand.
there was no way to tell you,
i just hoped you'd understand.
i was waiting for you,
alone with that boy.
he needed a sympathy,
he just didn't want to have to say why.

this way i'll always be for you,
and to see you now and help me on.
you know they like to knock me down,
but i don't stay down for very long.

i couldn't win,
but i could lose.
and so the time had come,
and i knew i'd have to choose.
but that kiss,
i take to the end,
until the next time i get to see you again.

this way i'll always be for you,
and to know you now will see me through.
away you know i knew you there,
and to see you now and help me on.
you know they like to knock me down,
but i don't stay down for very long.
they try to sing their wayward song,
but oh what a way i found.

this way i'll always be for you,
and to know you now will see me through.
away you know i knew you there,
i don't stay down for very long.
you know they like to knock me down,
but i don't stay down for very long.
they tried to say their wayward song,
but oh what a way i found."

if you don't mind

"happy endings, no they never bored me,
happy endings, they still don't bore me."

all the songs that say life's worth the worry and the pain

dilly boys ~ the libertines
dilly boys ~ peter doherty
dilly boys (live at the rhythm factory) ~ peter doherty

"she's my moral guide,
but she does nothing at all;
smokes all of my bones and stares at the wall,

maybe she'll pace the room,
howl at the moon."

i've lost my voice, and lost too much sleep this week. i used to not mind my battles with insomnia, often looked at it as opportunity to put more into a day, or at least as a quiet time to write. but lately, it is taking its toll on me. sleep is necessary, and i sometimes miss the dreams i have (had) that help fuel my writing. worry and stress, and moments of self-doubt, are not the best bedtime companions, are they?

so, my wish for today? howls at the moon to sing a fine goodnight, and then long and lazy sleep.

but she wont let you go

"but, when they played that song at the death disco,

it started fast,

but it ends so slow,

and all the time it just reminded me of you."

don't look back into the sun ~ the libertines

to shine fire upon everyone and no one

"he is stronger than the walls that you try to build around him." ~ un bilo titled

there is talent and depth there that will someday outshine all the addictions, the fuck ups, and tabloid stories; and, at that time maybe people will stop asking me why i feel the way i do.

un bilo titled ~ babyshambles

365 loves: peter doherty

bilo said to blue eyes...

suppose i should not already have the album, but i will buy it when it comes out. and, i know most people might dismiss my view on it because of who i am, so be it. that said, the album is fucking incredible. good on you, peter.

lucy loves it.

unbilotitled ~ babyshambles

he is stronger than the walls

that you tried to build around him

to dumb or dumbfound him

for 2000 years i waited for your call

screaming from the window

screaming bloody murder

the more that you follow me

the more I get lost

you think that you know me

you're pissing me off

yeah, you said that you love me

oh, why don't you fuck off?

you think that you own me

you're ripping me off

i messed my head, i messed my head

how happy would I be

just to shine fire upon,

oh everyone and no one

messed my head

and I messed my head

how happy would I be

to shine a fire upon, oh everyone and no one

wolfman and bilo, on the run

wolfman said to bilo, "i'm calling it on"

bilo said to blue eyes "put your trousers back on"

he is stronger than the walls

that you tried to build around him

to dumb and dumbfound him

for 2000 years i waited for your call

screaming from the windows

screaming bloody murder