when your heart was open wide and you love things just because

a more complete review will follow later, because the show has worked it's way up into my top five of all-time. jenny lewis gave me a shot of just about everything i needed last night. there is nothing quite like singing at the top of your lungs, dancing, being with good friends, and crying because a song just wraps you up and understands, and gets it. and gets you.

there were other songs that hit me hard, one other especially, but it was this song - and specifically this part of the song - that was clearly the truth i needed to hear right now. and i will, you know...someday...i will be happy.

thank you, miss lewis.

"and sometimes when you're on

you're really fucking on

and your friends they sing along

and they love you

but the lows are so extreme

that the good seems fucking cheap

and it teases you for weeks in its absence

but you'll fight and

you'll make it through

you'll fake it if you have to

and you'll show up for work with a smile

and you'll be better

you'll be smarter

more grown up

and a better daughter

or son

and a real good friend

and you'll be awake

you'll be alert

you'll be positive though it hurts

and you'll laugh and embrace all of your friends

and you'll be a real good listener

you'll be honest

you'll be brave

you'll be handsome

and you'll be beautiful

you'll be happy."

a better son/daughter ~ rilo kiley