"don't forget what you've learned all you give is returned,
and if life seems absurd what you need is some laughter.
and a season to sleep,
and a place to get clean,
maybe los angeles, somewhere no one is expecting.
on a detox loft through a glendale park,
over sidewalk chalk,
someone wrote in red,
so i muffled my scream on an oxnard beach,
full of fever dreams that scare you sober,
into saltless dinners."
i think i may be dealing with a bout of depression that i am having a very rough time shaking. there are good things happening in my life and yet i feel very weighed down by sadness. i have yet to make it through a day without crying multiple times. i think i need a "start over". i think i need somewhere unexpected (though not los angeles). i think i need to sort out what is wrong with me.